Mobile Blogging Finally!

Yes! Something I've been trying to do since days...my mobile blogging has finally started! When I say trying, I meant I wanted to do it but was putting only half-hearted efforts and that too in the wrong place. That is like pushing a locked and bolted pull door feebly. But well, now that it's rectified, I'm more than glad at the thought of blogging whenever I wish. So long!!=)

Outlet To Confusion...My Way!

   Everybody have different ways of reacting to confusion and the kind of depressing feeling it brings along. I, for instance, go real quiet and way into my thoughtful mode(well, atleast more than usual!). Whether I come up with a solution or not is never promised, but I always(and obviously) do need an outlet for those 'thoughts'. Now I have this wonderful option of blogging, but since years, my outlet mostly always has been my poems. They are the deepest and truest, most exact expression of the state of my mind. And I secretly think that nobody,yet, has fully and exactly understood any of them, except me ofc. That gives a feeling of security, although I don't know why! But even then, unknowingly, I keep on searching/waiting for atleast one person who'd take this exception of me; again I don't know why! And I don't even know why I'm writing all this now! See the confusion? I got lots more!:) So here's one outlet to such confusion:

TO BE OR NOT TO BE

To be or not to be
That gurl they wanna see
To be or not to be
That gurl they fail to see
To be or not to be
What I or they don't believe
To be or not to be me?
A soul so thoughtful
Understands everyone's wonderful
Is she a fool?
To trust, think, feel, talk
The trust never doubtful or wavering
The thought never selfish,only considerate
So, does the feeling have to be only pain?
The talk only superficially happ?
The dilemma that haunts day and night
The lonliness that creeps up in a crowd
The hurt locked up deep inside
Will it ever solve, disappear, dissolve?
'Cuz when it does, I'm waiting..
To be or not to be Me...

-Heli...

Bonds of Love and Craziness- a belated dedication to my friends!

The best enjoyment of our lives is mostly, always with our friends. A night few months ago was same for me. A sleepover at a friend's place is always full of fun and excitement. And whether you are 12 or 20, doesn't matter. 'Cuz we can be as much kids as adults with our friends. A friendship day celebration that kept on getting postponed for a month, finally resulted in super fun- worth the wait, I say.

   So what if the plans kept chnging even at the last moments. It is nothing new at all with my group. We can never meet as and when we decide! There's always confusion- evrybody ends up at different places before  creating still more confusion and coming to a common decision of somewhere. And after we finally meet, there's more confusion and chaos as each of us try to explain what happened in our own way. Anybody watching us would have a real dose laughter. We take almost an hour to settle down i.e. the chaos just subtles down:)
   Conversation, laughter, food, even tears- togetherness is all we want! Talking over eachother at dinner table, cracking up at random things, rapid fire games, gossip(all girls gossip..but we do only good :-D), update exchanges, serious discussions, fighting over who'll get their lazy bum off to make maggie or fetch water, catching 40 winks while not letting others sleep, picture posing(never good poses though!)..I could list but it wouldn't end! 14 years of knowing credits for more than a list..much more:)
   I just hope and wish that such bonds don't turn into the kind that weaken and fade over time and distance!:)